I hope you’ve enjoyed a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to a great New Year! 🙂
It’s nearing the start of a New Year, a time I’ve had to wait for in order to move forward with another IVF cycle. What will the New Year bring? I don’t know, is it important for me to know? No, it’s important for me to have faith in Jesus Christ.
In November, after seeing Dr. Frattarelli – the OB/GYN, I knew something had to change. Despite having to anticipate my January menses and experience IVF again, I honestly didn’t want to do IVF again. Of course, with the 5 embryos that we have, I figured that was our only option. However, I didn’t want that option. I wanted us to become pregnant without assistance from technology.
I came up with an idea and proposed it to my husband. He agreed so we went forward with our plan. The plan was fairly simple…we would fast and pray for a baby, a miracle. Realistically, the plan was not that easy to execute. Just as a reminder, I saw Dr. F (ob/gyn) on Nov. 1, which was a Thursday. Fast Sunday at church is the first Sunday of the month, which means that our plan was formed and solidified in 3 days. On November 4th, Fast Sunday, we needed to move forward with our plan. We fasted and prayed for a miracle.
A miracle wasn’t the only thing we fasted about. We also fasted about a job – for me. I hadn’t heard back from a place I applied. I was hoping that during the month, sometime, I would be called for an interview. We would see.
Interestingly enough, that Sunday in church many people bore testimony of miracles and faith through personal experiences. This continued through the rest of church and for a few Sundays afterwards. It made me wonder if miracles still happen. I knew the answer to my wondering, yes, miracles still happen. I didn’t know if my faith was strong enough to believe the Lord would grant unto us, a miracle. Around this same time, my husband and I were concluding our reading of the Book of Mormon. It was very intriguing to me that in Ether and Moroni (the last 2 books in the Book of Mormon) there are a lot of references to miracles. Here are some of the scriptures:
Ether 12:12 states: “For if there be no faith among the children of men God can do no miracle among them; wherefore, he showed not himself until after their faith.”
Moroni 7: 29, 33, 37 explains, “And because he hath done this, my brethren, have miracles ceased? Behold I say unto you, Nay; neither have angels ceased to minister unto the children of men.
33 And Christ hath said: If ye will have faith in me ye shall have power to do whatsoever thing is expedient in me.
37 Behold I say unto you, Nay; for it is by faith that miracles are wrought; and it is by faith that angels appear and minister unto men; wherefore, if these things have ceased wo be unto the children of men, for it is because of unbelief, and all is vain.”
These are not the only references to miracles in the Book of Mormon, just the ones that stood out to me at the time. I did read more to ponder about and listened to friends share experiences.
I knew that although our plan was fairly simple, it would require a lot from us. For me, I think faith was a critical element to our fasting and praying. Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ requires work. I can’t just sit around and say I have faith. Faith expresses trust and love, it requires humility and expands our understanding.
I knew the Lord would hear our prayers. I didn’t know whether He would bless us with a miracle. I trusted Him and knew that whatever was right, would happen. I have learned that I don’t just tell the Lord what I want, I share my desires and wait upon the Lord. I know the Lord knows what is best for me.
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